ever get the feeling that something's holding you back from being happy, just truly happy for those few moments?

it's so hard , plastering on a smile everyday. when i know, sometimes, it's not okay.

but i don't feel that SAD. i feel annoyed. and so, so angry.

you bitch.
you thought i would tell everyone about it.

let me tell you.
i've told no one. about YOU.

i feel like i can't give two shits about anything anymore.

Math corrections? ah, who gives a damn
science worksheets? whatever.

EOYs are already coming. am i trying to screw my life?

again?

why, why do you have to do this. i mean,
you never hesitate to remind me of my "wrongdoings"
when in fact,

you did them all too.

all i want is someone, just to sit there with me. at least let me know she's there, that she doesn't need me to notice or talk to her. but just sit there, to keep me company. and most importantly.

just listen, to what i don't say.